I used to judge my jealousy. I’d look around at my friends, colleagues, clients, family etc. and compare myself to them. Quickly following my comparison would come jealousy & right behind that would follow judgement. Judgement of myself and judgement of them. I’d be jealous of what I perceived them to have that I didn’t. I’d be angry and resentful once I’d formed the belief that I could or would never have whatever it was that they did. Then I’d judge myself for being such a sad state and living such a pathetic life.
Then at some point things changed. I changed.
I started a journey of soul retrieval and personal development to find myself. I studied, read, attended workshops, listened to hundreds of seminars on disc (thank you CB for all those trips back and forth to K-town listening to Bob, Tony, Jack, Rhonda, and many, many more….”I’m a magnet to money!” ha!). And although this journey will be life long, I am so grateful that my beliefs and perspective have changed so drastically. Now when I notice someone, or something, and I feel that old sensation of green, I stop, breathe and ask myself: Heather, do you want that? Sometimes my answer is no, but, more often than not, my answer is a resounding yes.
Today, I think of jealousy as a gift. It’s an illumination in my consciousness of my sub-conscious desires. Desires I didn’t even know I had. And yet, because of that feeling, that at first is a pang of jealously, I get to SEE, right there in front of me, in 3D, what it is that my heart is desiring. This makes life much easier for me, since my biggest struggle has always been answering the question: what do I want? By using my reaction of jealousy as my guidance, I’m able to identify quickly what the answer to that question really is.
Feelings are powerful modes of feedback. They allow for moments of profound awareness. They stop you in your tracks and at times make the process of moving forward absolutely impossible. That is until you turn, face them, walk towards them and ask….what are you trying to tell me?
There’s messages in your mess and gifts in your guidance.
If you’re anything like I used to be and you’re in the habit of judging your feelings….STOP. Your feelings are not here to hurt you – they are here to guide you, to steer you in the right direction of your destiny.
Simply ask your feeling…what do you want me to know? See what the answer is…..I bet you’ll like it.