When I nominated myself for the EWomenNetwork 2009 International “Emerging Leader of the Year” award, I was never expecting to win. But when the email came a few months later announcing that I had indeed beat out all the other young, talented women in Vancouver BC and was being flown to Dallas as one of the twelve International finalists, you can imagine, I was stunned, excited and a little scared all at the same time. Since I was a little girl I dreamed of a day like this, where I would be up on stage in front of thousands of people, being honoured for achieving a level of success that set me apart from my peers. And as I stood on that stage and looked out to the crowd of 2500 people, introduced myself and gave thanks to my sponsoring chapter and managing director I experienced one of the happiest and most proud moments of my life.
2009 International Emerging Leader of the Year Finalists and their Managing Directors
Too often in my life I have worked incredibly hard to reach a goal or get to a certain place, only to have somewhat of a surreal experience that I was not wholly present for. This time, I set a clear intention of being there, in the moment, able to feel the sensations in my body as I reached this incredible goal. This small shift in consciousness left me feeling so incredibly full – exactly what I wanted and needed!
Though I was not named the Winner of this International award, and at the risk of sounding cliché, I feel like this experience was more of a ‘win’ than I could have ever expected. Amongst all the amazing women that I met and all the gifted speakers that I saw present throughout the week, I was given a very special gift: that of friendship with the other 11 stunningly amazing women that shared the honour of making this list of finalists for this prestigious award. Each one was incredibly bright, beautiful on the inside and out, gifted and talented, so much so, that as we got to know one another I couldn’t help but question my deservingness (is that a word?) of winning. In the end, I know in my heart we all deserved to win and each won in our own special way.
This experience strengthened me and allowed me to grow in so many ways. But, the greatest gift was in confirming my faith in the fact that in order to “see” our goals and desires become real in our life, we must first believe. Believe in ourselves, believe in our abilities, believe in our talents, believe in our ability to learn and grow and believe that we deserve. We deserve to live the life that we once only imagined as we drifted off to sleep at night. The life we admired (and may have even been jealous of) when we saw someone else living it. The life our mothers and fathers told us we were capable of. The life we came here to live.
As a result of this past week I am even more committed to my dreams and goals than I have ever been in my life. I am so grateful to all the people who have supported up until now and whom I know will continue to support me in times to come. And as a tribute to all my supporters, I will continue to walk my talk, dream big dreams and take action everyday to bring them in to reality in my life. Thank you all!!